I enjoy the feeling of not wanting something to end. I love exploring ways that I may stretch time out in order to enjoy something more, or get a few more wonderful things accomplished or to be with someone I love just a bit longer. One thing I have to watch, however, is not to let my “I-don’t-want-it-to-end” mantra to overtake the joy I am actually feeling. This can be easy or hard depending on the circumstance.
I am fascinated, as well, with how I can be bored or wearied with what I am doing. During these moments, I sometimes wish that time could pass more quickly. I try to be conscious of these instances because it tells me I am not in a state of equanimity. I am not recognizing the present moment and the beauty all around me.
I carry the drum’s beat within me wherever I go. Sometimes it is loud, sometimes soft. Sometimes it is fast, sometimes slow. It lives with me and I many times take it for granted, ignore it, discard its importance and disrespect it. But I am practicing and working on listening and controlling the rhythm more. I am finding ways to slow it down so I may truly enjoy this beautiful world. And with practice, to slow it down enough to more easily slip between the beats to find the medicine and the magic and the love for myself.
This is my journey
— Nate Long “Owl”